My favourite songs

Yesterday night I was reading a blogpost by Ollie Martin about music and it inspired me to write this down (and, if you're reading this Ollie, it's kinda a reply to yours).

What does music mean to me? I can't even explain. It's seriously a big part of my life, without it I'm lost. It's not only something to listen to when you have nothing to do/you're waiting, it's something more than it. It helped me, it somehow feels me, if it makes sense. Every songs to me has its own meaning and I love them all. Anyway let's get started.

So, the first song of this very long list (I won't write them all) has to be The Fault In Our Stars by Troye Sivan.

That song is literally flawless, I seriously love it. I like both versions, the normal one and the MMXIV too, and the video Troye made for that song is just.. perfect. ( If you've never heard of it or seen the video, check out here)

Second song of this list is Little Things by One Direction. Such a cliché for a directioner, I have to admit it, but the meaning behind that song is something amazing and it reminds me of their concerts, so it's even better.

And here's where the list starts being less a list and more a mixture of thousand songs on the same level. [I can't even choose three favourites, amazing Susanna]

Lifeboat by Tom Mann - a really great song, but also  really underrated, I'm probably the only human who knows that song but it really needs to be more appreciated.

Echo by Trevor Moran - I didn't know I loved that kind of music untill I heard this one. It gives me the energy to go on and do things. Mornings are better if you listen to it.

Don't Wait by Mapei - I actually found out this song because of Tyler and Troye's livestream last year and fell in love. I just find it beautiful.

Give Me Love by Ed Sheeran - this song doesn't need any explanations, it's just perfect. Oh and if you didn't know, the full one is actually 8 minutes long and the second part is even more beautiful than the first.

Flares by The Script - other amazing but incredible underrated group (and obviously their songs too) of these years. Every song of theirs is beautiful, but this one has something special.

Where No One Goes by Jonsì and John Powell - yes, it's How To Train Your Dragon 2 soundtrack. No, I'm not ashamed at all to put this song in my favourites. That song makes me feel free for some reasons and I love it.

Serendipity by Michele Bravi - really underrated singer(and so his songs), probably because italian so not really known out of here. But I swear, his voice is amazing.

Origin Of Love by Mika - this song has everything, it's simply beautiful.

I could go on for the rest of the day, but these are enough for now. If you want to find more, I have a spotify playlist where I put all of my new favourite songs everytime I find one. I'd be honoured if you followed it.

And you? What's your favourite song of all the time or just at the moment? Write a comment down here, I'd love to find out new music or see if you have the same tastes as me.

S xx

10 facts about me

Hello everyone! Since I didn't know what to write but I wanted to write, I decided to write down 10 facts about me, you probably don't even care but hey, at least I tried.
So, let's get started.

1. My real name is Susanna, but since I rather more the English version of it, That's why this blog is called "Suzanne's thoughts".

2. I live in Italy. In fact, I'm Italian. So, If I make mistakes or I can't explain something properly because I don't know the right words to use, I apologize. I still have to learn.

3. I am 16 and I go to high school. If you wonder why not in college, school system is different here. I'd write 10 pages about how different it is, but I don't think you're interested in it, so I won't. (you can always ask me though)

4. Music means a lot to me. I'm a big fangirl of singers, like Troye Sivan, Conor maynard, Michael Bublè, Michele Bravi, and boybands like One Direction, The Script, Stereo Kicks, Bastille, 5 Seconds Of Summer, and I could go on for ages.

5. I'm also in love with a lot of youtubers like Niki and Sammy, Sam King, Tyler Oakley, Troye Sivan, Alfie Deyes, Ollie Martin and more.

6. I consider myself a creative person. In fact,  I love to draw. I really love to draw, in special my favourite people. I also love to take photos, mostly of the sky or the nature in general, I feel like they aren't appreciated enough. And write too, which is why I have a blog.

7. I have never had a boyfriend either kissed someone. It's kinda sad, but I still live happy so don't worry if you haven't either, it'll happen one day.

8. Even if in the previous point it looks like I have a sad life, I haven't. In fact, I still consider myself a lucky girl. I almost met all of my favourite youtubers at Itatube 2014, went to 2 One Direction's concerts ( Take Me Home Tour at Mediolanum Forum - Milan and Where We Are Tour in San Siro - Milan(yes, I'm in the DVD)) and I've already planned to go to Itatube 2015 and two concerts this year (The Script at Mediolanum Forum - Milan and 5 Seconds Of Summer at the SSE Hydro - Glasgow).

9. I love to travel. Unfortunately I can't go everywhere, because I don't really have money to do it, but when I can, I go. I've been to various places in Italy, but only once in a foreign country, in France. I went to Strasbourg in middle school. That's why I'm really excited to go to Scotland this year, I can't wait.

10. Being the fangirl I am, I found myself running 4 different twitter accounts. I don't know if it's normal but I don't really care. My main account, mostly for youtubers, One Direction, The Script and many other people, is @Albonslover. The second one is only for Stereo Kicks, and it's @smilingReece. The third one, @lovingOllie, is for Ollie Martin and to be honest for when I watch How To Train Your Dragon or play Pokémon. I don't know why, but I use this one when I do it. The last but not least one, @randomlylayouts, is a layout account. I love making layouts, so I make them and give them to who wants them.

So, these were my 10 facts. I put a little of self promo, in special in the last point, but I hope you don't mind. I can't help it.
It's your turn now. Comment a random fact about you, even self promo is allowed with me. I'd like to know you all better, it'd be really cute.
S xx

Hate

Hi people. Weirdly it hasn't even been a week and I'm writing again. I don't know if I'm just in the right mood or I feel guilty for not writing for months. Either ways here's a new one.

So, the word is "hate". Why? I was texting one of my internet best friends about a really annoying girl, I won't say their names. While talking she asked me if I hated that girl and that made me thing about this new blogpost, so I'm writing it while I still have the idea.

I consider the word "hate" one of the worst words ever. It's a really serious topic for me.
Hate it's not one of those words you can use randomly like "banter", no. The dictionary says "to dislike intensely or passionately; feel extreme aversion for orextreme hostility toward; detest". So, if you use that word seriously, you must feel something horrible in your deep, it's not just not standing someone.

I'm telling you this because I've been "hated" by some people for years and, trust me, it's probably the worst feeling ever. When people tell you that, if you're like me and, unfortunately, care about what other people think of you, it destroys you. It makes you being sad, so sad that all you want to do it's to cry. So, please, think about what you're saying before saying it. I get you, if you mean you can't stand someone because it's super annoying or acts like a b*tch, I know way too many people like that. Or also if those people are bullying you and they make you feel like shit, I get you again, I felt the same in the past.(if you're wondering, yes I got bullied, but I won't talk about that now, probably I'll never do if you don't ask me) 

But if you don't like them, just ignore them. It's easier, no? I know sometimes it's difficult to ignore some people, but I learnt how to and you can too. They are just people who don't deserve your attention. Just leave them.

I don't know if this post was good or not, but it's more like a little rant so, if it wasn't, I'm sorry. These are just my thoughts though. 

And you? Have you ever used the word "hate" when it wasn't really necessary? Have you ever been "hated"? Comment down here, I'm ready to hear you.

S xx

Niki and Sammy Albon

So, you can already tell this going to be a little different, but I wanted to tell you a story, my story about Niki and Sammy Albon. I wanted to write this all for my "twindom anniversary" but I couldn't wait.

screenshot from the first younow I've watched

Everything started quite a long time ago, the 17th of january 2014. Almost a year ago. It all started with me clicking play on a video, a single little video that made me find two of the most amazing, lovely, funny and best people I know. I'm not sure about what video it was, probably Homemade Oreos. It doesn't really matter though. After that video I watched another and another and another, I couldn't stop. There was something special in them, something that made me feel happy. I started following them on twitter and the relationship that was created there made it even more special. 

They are always there for you and that's literally the best thing about them. Since I joined, they gained literally 72k subscribers, so many people joined the twindom -name of their fandom-, but they still tweet me and everything else. 

I (platonically) love them so much. They still make me happy as the first day I started wacthing their videos. I'm so proud of them and what they've acheived in this year; I already know they'll make me even prouder in 2015. I'd like to thank them also because of the people I met because of them. The twindom is literally the best fandom I've never been in. Everyone is so lovely and caring, exactly like them, it's more like a little family. I know there are people saying this in every fandom, but this is literally like a family. I just love them all as much as I love Sammy and Niki. 

If you're in the twindom or, who knows, you guys, I just want to thank you. 

Thank you for every single tweet, dm, email, even favourites, everything. 

Thank you for being so wonderfully great everytime. 

Thank you for being there when I need it.

Thank you for this amazing year together. 

Thank you.

Susanna. x

Photographs

Hello!

I know, it's been a while since the last time, I'm sorry. I won't promise it won't happen again, because, let's be serious, it will probably happen, but I'll try my best not to. 

So, as you can tell by the classic banner I put at the beginning of the post, today I'm gonna talk about photography. Why? Because I love it. I love taking photos as much as I love print them or use them for something, even if it's only for a twitter header.

Taking photos to me it's not just the action; I mean, I like searching the right place and lights, but it's more what they mean to me.

This picture, for example, may just be "good" or something to you, but it reminds me the lovely day I had with my sister and her boyfriend when I took it. Every photo I take, even if randomly, reminds me of something or someone; that's the thing I like the most of photos. 

I'd really like to become a professional photographer, but at the same time I don't. i don't know why, but I feel like if I make it become a work, I won't like it the same as I do if it's an hobby. Though it's still a great option.

If you wonder what I use to take photos (you probably don't but I'm going to tell you anyway), I use my phone. It sounds incredible, but I take almost all the pictures with my phone, a Jiayu G3. I also have a Lumix, which is hella great, but it's difficult to take it with me all the time. 

Back to the point, everything is good to be photographed. From the sky to your own bed, from the ocean to a snail, everything. 

I personally prefer sky and nature by the way. I just find them beautiful and underrated. I mean, everyone sees the sky everyday, but how many people stop a second and appreciate it because that day is weirdly red or full of fluffy little clouds? I really think that the things we see everyday are the less appreciated and I don't get why. I wish I could make everyone realize how beautiful is the world around us.

So, do you like to take photos too? What do you like to take a photo of? 

Comment down here :) 

S xx

Meeting Sam King

If you know me or if you follow Sam King, you know that exactly one week ago there was Drew's and Sam's Milan's meet up. And it was one of the best days of my life. If you want to read how went the day from Sam's blog, click on his name. If you want to read it from a viewer, well, here it is.
So, I woke up at 7 and got ready. I went to the train station at 9.30 and took the train to Milano centrale. I felt so nervous.


I arrived at 10.40-ish. It was early but it didn't really matter to me. I wouldn't miss any second of that meet up. When I got to the Duomo, I met my friend Camilla. Then we met Ilaria and Silvia too. It was still early, we took a selfie and then talked. I was the most nervous one and they can confirm. I kept walking and moving. When they arrived, obviously late, I almost cried. I was so happy.
They got mobbed a little, then they climbed the statue and took a selfie with us all. After that, they left the statue and started talking and taking selfies with us all.






I had to wait something like one hour, but it was perfectly fine. I waited 4 hours to meet Tyler and Troye at itatube, so it was nothing compared to that. When it was my moment, Vicky made Sam move away. I was like "why now", but I met him anyway a minute later. It was my turn, I was freaking out internally. The first thing I did was hugging him. While doing that, I told him "I missed you so much". He was like "aww" and my heart melted. After that, I gave him my phone and we took two selfies. After that I gave him a letter and he thanked me. But I had a surprise for him. I edited a tshirt for him and my friend Silvia helped me. Now, if you follow him, you know what I'm talking about. If you don't, I don't know why you're reading this tbh.

(I'm the left one)

Anyway, it's the one you see in the picture. I will never forget his reaction, I wish someone took a picture of that moment. It was probably the best moment of the whole meet up. After that he took a picture of us holding that (see: the tweet) and he took it. I still can't believe he loved(and still loves) it so much.
Then me and my friends sat down a little and we had to say goodbye to Camilla, who had to go home and study. We decided that we needed to eat, so we went to McDonalds. The queue there was so long that we missed all the challenges and the photo all together. Stupid queue.






When we got back I made Sam record a little voice note for my friend who couldn't come there. She cried when I sent her that. After that we decided to take a picture all together and a lovely girl who I didn't know took it for us. When she asked it, he was next to me in the left, but I wanted to "share" him with my friends so I moved and it was a little awkward. Though we took that photo all together. I hugged him for the last time, really tight and we left.





When, at 5.320, I got home I was a little sad. It was already ended. But after something like 10 minutes, he started tweeting about the meetup. When I saw the tweet that you can see up here, I was freaking out even more than before. And, I admit, this one in the right made me cry.
This week after the meet up was the best and worst week mixed together. It was the worst obviously because I've missed him a lot. But he managed to make it the best one too for me, because he followed and dm'd me on twitter, replied to my question in a q&a, let people see the shirt in the nikinsammynsam younow and last but not least talked about it even in his blogpost.



Now, after a week, I couldn't be happier.





Hi Sam. If you're reading this (probably because I spammed you on twitter) I'd like to tell you a few things. First of all, thank you so much, you've made every single day of this week and you keep doing that. Second, I'm really glad you liked the tshirt, I was so worried you wouldn't like it. Third, I love you. You're literally the cutest person I've ever met. Remember that I'm always there for you. xx

Youtubers and sexual abuse

So.. Hi.
If you're in the youtube community you probably know what is happening in these days. If you don't.. Well, Sam Pepper, a quite famous youtuber, made a "prank" video where he piched random girls' arses. And since then, someone decided to tell the truth and make a video talking about how he abused of her. (if you want to see the video:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Wgviv47pBc)
Now, another girl, Ania, confessed what Jason, also known as VeeOneEye, abused of her too. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Z2R-DA7ryY&list=UUc_mDLLNs3jtAEy7qIorW0w)
I won't talk about their stories, because those videos explain enough. But I'm happy and proud of all of these girls who have been strong and told the world what happened to them. And i'm also happy because a few youtubers are making videos about this, like LaurBubble, Lewis Parker, Ollie Martin, NikinSammy, trying to change fans' minds.
I'll be honest, at the beginning I used to believe to Sam's words, I don't even know why. But after some blogposts and videos, I realized how blinded I was. And if I, that I'm not even his fan, was blind, I can imagine his followers. We all need to talk about this and make people realize how is the reality. They CAN'T be part of this community anymore. We don't need people like Sam or Jason here.
Now, talking as the fan I am, I'm worried and scared. God only knows how many people have been through this and we don't know it because they're too scared to write/make a video on it. And also we don't know if other people like those two are doing the same thing. That's why I'm scared. I'm scared that one of the youtubers i love the most is doing the same and I don't know it. I'm scared that one day I'll be one of those girls too scared to tell the world the truth. But I shouldn't, I shouldn't be scared. Because there shouldn't be people likle that in this community.
Anyway I hope everyone will talk about this. Because more you say, more people know about it. And if you know it, you can try to fight it.
Together we can fight it and make the community a better place.


Susanna.